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50.0%ANMag Issue 25 Personal Maintenance
I Am...
By Theo Khoury, Contributing Writer
Beirut, Lebanon −
I am …
Allow me to introduce myself, I will be honest and will not exaggerate. Whatever I say to you will be the truth, of that I promise you. But then again, can you really trust me?
… Avaritia
I am greed … I am the driving force of humanity.
Without me there would be no economy, no businesses, no rich people, and no money. I have crawled into morality and subjected it to my own virtues. I have no remorse for taking what I want, even though I might already have it. I will find a way to have more and more, no matter how many lives it may consume.
… Gula
I am gluttony … I will eat more than I need
I do not create hunger, I create satisfaction. I am the never-ending love for eating beyond imaginably possible. I will have my food carved in shapes while the poor eat what I decide to throw away. I will have no guilt in watching people die of hunger while I indulge in every delicacy I wish for.
… Luxuria
I am lust … I am not ashamed of my urges.
I will use you to satisfy my sexual needs and will not care for any emotions you might have. I will blur your thoughts with mine until you will lose control of your actions. I can give you pleasure beyond belief or misery without boundaries. If you don’t yield to me I will lash out and take what I want forcefully. I exist in your darkest thoughts. I can make you do the unimaginable.
… Acedia
I am Sloth … you will serve me.
I am the cause of failure; I will break your spirit and let you waste your life until you are a part of forgotten history. Time is of no matter to me. I will be a burden to society and I will leech over what others work for. I am the face of carelessness. I avoid all responsibilities or duties. I will see the world crumble around me and will not act. My life is my own to waste.
…Ira
I am wrath … I will have my way.
I have caused damage beyond comprehension, destroyed as many lives as I have taken away. I will overcome your emotions and your thoughts until the only thing you can do is cave into my anger. You will do horrifying things, you will cause pain and suffering and you will not regret it, instead you will enjoy it. I will creep into your senses and use you as my pawn. Vengeance shall be mine.
… Invidia
I am envy … I want everything you have.
I will not let you enjoy what you have. If I don’t have it then no one will. I would rather see you suffer than be better than me. You can not reject me, I am always around you. I will grow stronger every time you see something you lack. My wishes have no boundaries. The only thing that will stop me from wanting more is death.
… Superbia
I am pride … I will demean everyone around me.
I have no care for anything but me. Everything I do will be to gratify my needs of pretentiousness. I will look down on you and bloat my achievements in your face. I will not aid you when you are in need even though I can. I will let you watch me overpass you in everything and leave you to waste away.
Who am I?
I have created a world of shame and dishonesty; A world of sin. I have no guilt for what I have done and I will make things even worse. I took the place of god, and turned the gift of life into waste.
I am no demon or evil spirit; I am the one who is in control of everything, the one who will not change.
I am you.